While I am beyond overjoyed at the coming of summer, I have been up against a sizeable creativity-inhibiting wall. Writer's block is no joke (it's extremely discouraging), so instead I am focusing on finding moments of happiness, wonder, and small glimmers in my everyday life (this means a lot of slowing down, sweet treats, time outside, and time outside of the city).

The writing ebbs and flows, often appearing in overpowering waves and then rescinding an indeterminate time later, leaving what feels like a barren wasteland in place of a diverse ocean ecosystem. However, I know this will be temporary and it's often deeply interwoven with my mental health.

So for now, I hope wherever you are and no matter the situation you are in while reading this, that this acts as a reminder to take care of yourself and your mental wellbeing.

Until next time,
Fabel

So much snow... still.

And before we get into it, I logically know it's still only February. I do. Spring is around the corner but I am so done with winter. The SAD, the cold, the Toronto roads (??), and the lack of sun and green and warmth and life continues to feel endless. I've been coming home from work and laying down for hours to try and regain a semblance of myself again. I've always found winter challenging though and this year is no different. 

Apart from me being done with the cold, my dog is absolutely loving it. Seeing her run around with zoomies, diving into snowbanks and rolling until she's covered in snow still makes me smile despite it all and think it's not so bad to still be in the winter season.

Writing Update: I've finished another children's book and am submitting it for consideration through a publishing house! 

I have no experience outside of self-publishing so attempting to go through the more traditional route of a publishing house will be interesting. Time will tell but for now I am going to get more tea...

That's all I have for now!
Until next time,
Fabel

Good morning!

I've been trying to figure out why I've been so unmotivated and tired lately, but as I am looking out the window this morning at the snow and ice, I'm reminded that it's January. I'm not a fan of January (or February tbh) but I'm doing what I can. Despite the pressure I feel to focus on my goals and make new ones and stay on top of everything that I'm already doing (which is exhausting and probably too much if I'm being honest with myself), I'm instead going to embrace "bear mode." That is- I'm going to try and extract myself from productivity culture's death-grip, and instead hibernate.

Have I ever had success with doing this before? No.
Am I still going to try this year? Yes. 

My hope is that by allowing and encouraging myself to rest, I will reignite the creative spark and drive that seems to have been extinguished during burnout. Who knows? Maybe dying my hair will add some much-needed zest back into my life...

Here's to not pressuring ourselves this year, and living a more seasonal lifestyle (or whatever kind of lifestyle allows you to thrive). 

Until next time,

​Fabel

Hello and welcome to what I imagine will rapidly devolve into chaos as I brain-dump my thoughts into the internet! :) In all seriousness, thank you for being here and sharing your time with me, that means more to me than I can express. 

Some general updates:

• I have been absolutely neglectful of my social media so RIP. 
• Have I been working on book 2 of The Child Series?............ no (lol). 
• BUT stay tuned because instead there are three (3) other books I've been working on and am hoping to publish at least one (1) of them this year!

That's all I have for now!
Until next time,
​Fabel